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This is a different entry, but I would like to share here what a few years ago I began to experience in my life, different situations of chaos that I could not understand or find an apparent reason for going through this chaos in some areas of my life. Since I can remember I have been an organized person, I like to plan and every beginning of the year I used to write some goals that later at the end of the year I would review again and check the ones that came to fruition, this method always worked for me This is how I managed to acquire things for my house, new knowledge (studies), renew my work equipment, help my family, etc.
Creo que siempre he sido una persona espiritual, es decir sin darme cuenta desde muy joven entrenaba mi mente con una actitud positiva y me enfocaba de tal manera que las cosas se iban dando, si bien soy consciente de que vivo en un mundo material en el que debo concretar metas materiales, también he cultivado mi lado espiritual y he sido agradecida, sin embargo hubo un punto de inflexión en mi vida en mi temprana adultez, dónde comenzó una etapa complicada en mi vida en la que cada meta se hacía más difícil de alcanzar, lo primero que empecé a experimentar frente a ese caos fue la preocupación, luego llegaría la incertidumbre, la frustración, pérdida de motivación, miedo, etc. Emociones que me desestabilizaron a tal punto que no podía conectarme con esa parte mía que hacía que las cosas sucedan.
Le di fuerza y poder a un sinfín de emociones con las que nunca antes había conectado y por lo tanto un nuevo panorama para el que claramente no me había preparado, porque al ser una persona que siempre se enfoca en la parte positiva de la vida (Yang) había subestimado que en mi paso por este mundo también debía experimentar el lado Yin (oscuridad).
I think I have always been a spiritual person, that is, without realizing it, from a very young age I trained my mind with a positive attitude and focused myself in such a way that things happened, although I am aware that I live in a material world in which that I must achieve material goals, I have also cultivated my spiritual side and I have been grateful, however there was a turning point in my life in my early adulthood, where a complicated stage began in my life in which each goal became more difficult to achieve. to achieve, the first thing I began to experience in the face of that chaos was worry, then uncertainty, frustration, loss of motivation, fear, etc. would come. Emotions that destabilized me to such an extent that I couldn't connect with that part of me that made things happen.
I gave strength and power to endless emotions with which I had never been connected before and therefore a new panorama for which I clearly had not prepared myself, because being a person who always focuses on the positive part of life (Yang ) I had underestimated that in my passage through this world I also had to experience the Yin (dark) side.
Ahora lo veo así, pero en su momento mientras iba transitando por ese largo túnel de cambios, pasé por bajones emocionales, crisis existenciales, confusión y desconfianza. Era un constante entrar y salir de diferentes situaciones que no me hacían bien a nivel emocional, lo más random de todo es que muchas de esas situaciones yo no las buscaba, otras sí, porque no era consciente o me confiaba de personas que no debía, pero las situaciones se presentaban y eran como una especie de desafío que aparecía en el camino, tensiones con algunos amigos o familiares, pérdida de algunas personas que en otro tiempo consideré importantes, fricciones con personas de mi entorno sin motivo aparente, llegué a un punto en que quería aislarme y justo en ese momento llegó la pandemia del 2020 para ese momento estar aislada de todo y todos resultó para mi terapéutico aunque no lo crean, no podía más literalmente.
Felizmente que mi circulo más cercano e intimó notó mis cambios y malestares, pude desahogarme, hablar de todo lo que estaba atravesando en ese momento fue crucial para poder superarlo, inconscientemente empecé a meditar, y digo inconscientemente porque si hay algo que tengo es que suelo sobre pensar algunos sucesos de mi vida, especialmente los caóticos, para poder entenderlos, para no volver a cometer el mismo error, eso fue también de gran ayuda durante este proceso, me di cuenta que en la etapa en la que me iba mejor, no tenía mucha interacción social, pero con el paso de los años la vida cambia, nos guste o no nuestro circulo social se amplifica ya no solo es la familia, el colegio, los amigos, el trabajo, el negocio, en fin... En cada una de esas áreas toca interactuar con diferentes personas y déjame decirte que no todas pensarán, ni sentirán como tú lo haces, la diferencia de vibración es lo que genera tu caos personal.
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Now I see it that way, but at the time while I was going through that long tunnel of changes, I went through emotional downturns, existential crises, confusion and distrust. It was a constant going in and out of different situations that did not do me good on an emotional level, the most random of all is that many of those situations I did not look for others, because I was not aware or I trusted people I shouldn't, but Situations arose and they were like a kind of challenge that appeared along the way, tensions with some friends or relatives, loss of some people that I once considered important, friction with people around me for no apparent reason, I reached a point where that I wanted to isolate myself and just at that moment the 2020 pandemic arrived, for that moment to be isolated from everything and everyone turned out to be therapeutic even if you don't believe it, I literally couldn't take it anymore.
Fortunately, my closest and most intimate circle noticed my changes and discomforts, I was able to let off steam, talking about everything I was going through at that moment was crucial to be able to overcome it, unconsciously I began to meditate, and I say unconsciously because if there is something I have, it is that I usually overthinking some events in my life, especially the chaotic ones, in order to understand them, so as not to make the same mistake again, that was also a great help during this process, I realized that in the stage in which I was doing better, I had no a lot of social interaction, but as the years go by, life changes, whether we like it or not, our social circle is amplified, it is no longer just family, school, friends, work, business, in short... In each one of those areas involves interacting with different people and let me tell you that not all of them will think or feel like you do, the difference in vibration is what generates your personal chaos.
En este punto de mi vida miro hacia atrás, me doy cuenta que debí de cuidarme más, de no ser tan confiada porque la maldad siempre va a aparecer en tu vida y es mejor que no te tome desprevenida, el uso constante de la tecnología me alejo de seguir cultivando mi lado espiritual, fortalecer mi mente y proteger mi energía ¡Me hubiera ahorrado muchos dolores de cabeza! Lo que agradezco de ese viaje es haber aprendido y volver a conectar con esa faceta de mi vida que había descuidado porque el caos simplemente no me permitía conectar con la parte positiva de la vida o me costaba mucho esfuerzo, pero he salido más fortalecida, volví a conectar con mi intuición que ha sido el don que me ha acompañado desde pequeña, me volví más selectiva, ahora busco conectar con personas que tengan mi misma vibración. Cómo todo este viaje ha sido largo e intenso, les iré contando en diferentes entradas las situaciones por las que tuve que atravesar y cómo pude salir fortalecida. Si estás pasando por algo así, tal vez en este momento no lo notes pero pronto sabrás que no ha sido en vano. Estamos en contacto.
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At this point in my life I look back, I realize that I should have taken more care of myself, not being so trusting because evil will always appear in your life and it is better not to take you off guard, the constant use of technology makes me I am far from continuing to cultivate my spiritual side, strengthen my mind and protect my energy. It would have saved me a lot of headaches! What I am grateful for from that trip is having learned and reconnecting with that facet of my life that I had neglected because the chaos simply did not allow me to connect with the positive part of life or it cost me a lot of effort, but I have come out stronger, I came back to connect with my untuition, which has been the gift that has accompanied me since I was little, I became more selective, now I seek to connect with people who have the same vibration. How this whole journey has been long and intense, I will tell you in different posts the situations I had to go through and how I was able to come out stronger. If you are going through a moment like this, you may not notice it right now, but soon you will know that it has not been in vain. We are in contact.
Buen post, el despertar espiritual siempre es bueno, aunque no lo paresca, saludos:D
ResponderEliminarTe doy la razón, ahora lo veo y lo siento así. Si lo piensas bien hasta te hace más fuerte.
EliminarWhat a beautiful and vulnerable post. I so appreciate you sharing your experience. I am so glad that you have come out stronger and more selective about who you allow in your life. <3
ResponderEliminarthe creation of beauty is art.
That's right, dear, sometimes we have to stumble to be more careful on the way.
EliminarBeautiful Pics, amazing
ResponderEliminarThanks dear!
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